PMS

I feel very down this few days. I got no idea why. But suddenly I miss my grandparents so much. I used to be very proud that I have my full sets of grandparents and a great grand mother when I was in Primary school. Felt like not many of my friends were as lucky as me.

Then 9 years ago my maternal grandmother passed away very suddenly. I still remember we even visited her in the 1st day of CNY 1999. But she passed away on the 5th day. She is 1 most respectable woman. Strong, giving, forgiving and always know what she's doing. Many things happened after her passing. I know very well that if she's around all these will not have happened.

As for my father side. The side where I grew up with. Grandpa is getting more and more confusing about things around him. We did not send him to the doctor because we believe that he's just being himself - aging graciously. I think its a good idea that medical science is not introduced into his life. I feel like if he's fed medicine, he wouldn't be as lively and fresh as he is now. Although he can't see well and get confused about his timing, overall he's still quite independant.

Grandma was still pretty strong until recently she complaint of pain in her knees and back. She has been on medicaine for her high blood for many years now. Mental wise, she is still good at it. She can still cook but only with my aunty around. We are worried that 1 day she might forget to turn off the gas. She still remembers alot of our chinese tradition rules for ALL occasions. Confinements, birthday, wedding etc. Haha. She's like 1 walking ecyclopedia.

Great Grandma (Ah Chor) passed away @ a ripe age of 90+. There were a hundred over of us to send her off. I don't know much about her past but looking at the family members present I am sure she's the same as my grandma - kind, gentle and loved by all. She's got adopted children, step children. All getting along with no problem. The only reason I can think of is because she is a fair and loving lady. That's why the whole family, though there are children and grand children not of her own, everyone still cry and feel sad at her departure.